Poem: Redemption

Redemption

Nothing is safe
Not memories, not justified angst
Swallowed whole, with no escape,
Just time to waste
With a distress too much to console
Fiercely feeding on self-loathing and denial

The wretched memory
Of a day turned black
The reason I’ve come to say
"I’ll fail you"

I’ve lost all respect for what I have left
I’m holding up strong, yet I’m falling apart at the seams
These memories make it so hard to sleep

The sound of a name
It’s been so long
Invoking tempers
Within those without deaf ears
With a tragically failed attempt at "redemption"

Words long since discarded
Re-emerge, to have me sink a knee deeper still
Inciting remorse and regret from times before
As familiar markings quickly become foreign

The wretched memory
Of a day turned black
The reason I’ve come to say
"I’ll fail you"

I’ve lost all respect for what I have left
I’m holding up strong, yet I’m falling apart at the seams
These memories make it so hard to sleep

These hearts beat deep within the shallowest depths
And cry out "salvation"
But nothing will save you here
In a coat of despair
Held under a shattering force
With no acceptance of the present

Nothing is safe
Not memories, not justified angst
Swallowed whole, with no escape, just time to waste

The wretched memory
Of a day turned black
The reason I’ve come to say
"I’ll fail you"

I’ve lost all respect for what I have left
I’m holding up strong, yet I’m falling apart at the seams
These memories make it so hard to sleep